The Real Fall
Every year I'm always so surprised how quickly the "real" fall passes. The true image of fall, with multicolored leaves and weather perfect for just a sweaters; the whole point of the season seems to last only a week. Each year I always expect it to last longer, happen sooner, like it seemed to be back when I was a child. The real fall lasted for a week in the middle of November and a week ago, on the night before Thanksgiving, we had our first snow flakes of the winter season.
It's been so long since I've had the need to do this. I still read other people's online journals and I'm jealous of how they keep up with it, how they crave it and enjoy it. It reminds me of how I thought I would be continuing this until I was an old woman when, as it turns out, most days I forget I have a web site at all. I can feel the disappointment from the 17 year old in me and the realization and regret from the 19 year old. So unfunny how things turn out sometimes.
April 6th, 2006 - 19:43
COMMENTSI normally don’t comment on random blogs but… you mentioned how you were so paranoid about who reads and that you checked your statistics regularly… I didn’t want you paranoid about me.
Well, I just wanted to say how sad I found it that your last entry was on Nov 30th 2005 and you talked about not needing to do this anymore and it seems you haven’t posted since.
I don’t know you and have never read your blog until today… but it just made me so sad. Where is this girl now? Is her life still active and full? To me, because this is the only connection I’ve made to you, it seems that you’ve gone. disappeared. the story of a girl. years go by. then nothing.
Does it seem silly for me to think this? I wonder now, with everyone blogging… will blogs be left…. untouched a year or two later… with random last postings? Perhaps someone talking about meeting up with friends the following weekend… and then nothing. nothing.
It’s sad. .. in a way. I hope your life is full.