Positive thoughts, E-mails, Weight update
Today I had time to reflect and realize just how small my current problems really are. I may be slightly overweight, but I'm happy. I may be having issues with one of my classes, but I'm doing extremely well in the other. I may be embarrassed of what my life is now, but one day I know that I will be proud of what I have and who I am. I may have lost contact with so many of my cherished friends, but I have someone who loves me so very much. There is always something good to appreciate, there is always something that deserves credit for just being all that it is, especially when other things arn't going the way that I had hoped.
I'm not sure what it is about this time of the year. My whole outlook takes on a more positive tone, and I'm more sensitive to what is going around me. Maybe it's because I don't feel so trapped in the house, since the weather is actually worth going outside for. I had always said that winter was my favorite season, because it was so beautiful... but the older I get, the easier it is to find beauty in all seasons. What makes them different is how the spring and summer months seem to warm up my attitude.
Though, I'm sure me listening to an old Enrique Iglesias CD that I found today has a little something to with my upbeat attitude. While I may be bubbling over with positiveness, I might as well comment about how the past few days have gone, even if some of it touches on issues that I was fuming about earlier this week.
After playing a heated game of e-mail tag with my programming design professor over the past few days, he has stopped responding... or, he has not responded to me in more than 24 hours since my last e-mail to him. If he does not respond by tomorrow evening, I will contact him yet again. It is probably just the competitive side of me, but I take his silence as me having found a way to prove him wrong. Even if he e-mails me back sometime this evening asking me to restate the same argument for him yet again, it has felt good for most of today just to feel as though I've finally stated my view clearly enough to have him at a loss for words. I seriously doubt that even if it really got to that point, that he would change my grade to a 50% like I have requested... but at this point, just being right, and convincing him that I was, would be enough for me in the end.
I've been trying to keep to a pretty regular diet. Having anything I want for dinner (though it works more like my breakfast, since I wake up at 1 every day) and then having a Pot Pie and some Special K as my two other meals. Every other day my mother and I do about 10 minutes of stomach exercises, and sometimes we go on a mile long walk together. When I feel up to it, I'll go into the garage and work slightly on my arms (since they're terribly weak, I can't do much with them without them feeling like they're going to fall off), and sometimes do some things for my legs. Otherwise, I do 50 sets on each side of something a Seventeen magazine called the "six pack twist", or something along those lines. When I look in the mirror, it looks as though I've lost a great deal of weight in my face and in my stomach, yet I'm still hovering around 139/140 pounds. Each time before I step on the scale, my mother says "muscle weights more than fat!" I'm sure if I converted myself from drinking soda to drinking water that I would lose weight at a much faster pace, but I just can't get into it. Bottled water, tap water; it all tastes like I'm licking metal to me.
I've been anxious to put up the photolog I've been working on. But, currently my domain is having some problems with the thumbnail script that movable type has, even though I have all the necessary programs installed for it to be running properly. I submitted a support ticket about it 3 days ago, and though they spent roughly 2 hours troubleshooting with me 2 days ago, they stopped after they recommended I install a special script on my server to see if that works. ATM, that NetPBM isn't working either, and though I have responded to the ticket, asking for further assistance with what they suggested, I haven't heard anything from them. I'm thinking I'll have no choice but to either upgrade the request or submit a whole new support ticket on the matter.
Oh... and as I told Matt I was going to do, I'm going to post one of the many odd things me and Matt were saying on the phone yesterday evening. I don't think he really believed I would post it, either by forgetting to do it or simply not wanting to 
But here it is... it's meant to be funny, but it's got some "inside" jokes in it too Caution to those who don't like graphically perverted things:
"Hump me like an un neutered puppy with your thick penis!"
Heh... I try to keep such a proper tone in this journal, but I'm so much more of a pervert IRL.