Hooplah.Org A Story of Graceful Stumbles

Surprise, surprise

Well, so much for my temporary high of having a good grade in my Programming Design class. I just checked my assignment from last week that I was worried about, and he gave me a 25% on it, which kicked my grade down to a 69%. All my professor did was tell me that I did not include the Hierarchy Chart, Flowchart, or Psuedocode... even though in my answer I stated WHY I didn't include them. It wasn't like I had "forgotten" to, I actually had (what I thought) was a very logical reason for not including them. The least he could have done was tell me WHY it was possible in 10 words or less, instead of just treating it as if I'm some slacking deadweight just taking up his time.

I told my mother after I found out about, trying to fight back tears while saying it, because I needed someone to at least understand... and all she did was seem *very* upset, ask me why I got it wrong, and then tell me we'd "talk about it in the morning" since she was behind for getting ready for work. WTF are we supposed to "talk" about, I'm not 5 years old, and talking about it will do nothing but make me feel like more shit than I already do. So I came back to my room and posted my first post on the class discussion thread. I sounded fucking pissed off, and made snide comments like "I need help understanding how I was wrong rather than just having my assignment marked wrong," but I really don't care. I should have gotten a little more credit for actually using my *mind* to come to my own independent answer instead of just copying out of the book like most everyone else probably did. Yeah, they can trace well, therefore they are all worthy of 100s. Sure.

I'd love everyone to be like... oh snap, Chrisy is right, this problem was impossible! Ahhh, everyone else in the class but her got it wrong, OMG! Yeah, right. There will be something obvious probably that completely went over my head, or someone will spout some BS that was completely NOT covered in the chapter but only they know because they read ahead. Or something. I just don't think there's *any* answer for how you get weekly sale figures when all you're given to work with is data on type of animal and price of animal. Fuck this shit.

God, this was such a mistake. A big expensive mistake. And it's not the idea itself, it's me doing it that makes it all wrong. I work my ass off and still can't do well. Why did I ever think I was capable of doing this.