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All types of Hurricanes

Even though I am a little curious as to what Hurricane Isabel's current status is, I don't dare turn on the news. I'm pretty confident that it will only bring high winds and a shit load of rain by the time it makes it to my area. Why turn on the news, when their tactic of keeping ratings is to instill unneeded fear so people will "stay tuned", since the next report may save their lives in the heat of danger. Not that I would be drawn in to the point of being afraid, but I'm always a victim of doubt, and the last thing I need is have something nagging at my confidence over things I cannot control. From weather.com, I know it should be here by the AM on Friday. I should expect neat photo opportunities and some power outages. What's the big deal? As long as the power is only out during the day, I'm fine.

Speaking of hurricanes... I seem to be one myself the past couple of days. I would blame it on PMS if it weren't too early for me to be having it. I have been getting in heated arguments... most to the point where I utterly scream so hard and loud that it's left my throat feeling raw, like I have a cold. It's been a while since that has happened, since having Matt in my life truely did calm down my anger... I just don't know what's throwing me off now-a-days. I shouted at my mother over some cashier tattling on her at work (and the girl that tattled had been my friend, so I on the denfensive for her, even though what she did was shitty) and I yelled my head off at my father over pop-ups on the computer. He was blaming my mother for them happening, as if it really mattered who went to what web page that was now causing annoying pop-ups... it's not like anyone did it on purpose, or could have been anymore immune to it than the other. He just likes centering his aggression on someone and lashing out... but I put him in his place by fixing the problem over something easy (the homepage had been changed, stupid advertising bastards). I also got in a huge fight with Matt over DAoC. I'm to the point where I really don't want to pve anymore.. the end game is about rvr, and after leveling 3 and 1/2 level 50s (and the process of getting to level 50 takes about a month and 1/2 - 2 months, and that's doing it fast) I just think it's time I start doing what I've been wanting to do all along... rvr. Matt has always had a tendency to favor pve over rvr (in my opinion) and was very upset when I didn't believe him that he finally wanted to rvr too... after leveling so many chars, and him not being interested in rvr for really any of them, it's like the boy who cried wolf... eventually no one believes you. But he promised up and down that it would be different this time... so I believe him. But my god... if he dare suggests leveling another char to 50 because he hates his friar... *twitches* I may not mind leveling another, but not for another 3-6 months at least...

I'm just one big bundle of hostility these days.