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For a minute, I thought I was just really raunchy minded while reading the product info on this until I noticed it was made by Big Teaze Toys.

I haven’t been posting much or even really doing much in general the past day or so. On average, I’m not very productive on any level, and it’s amazing that I can even be less productive, but today has been one of those days. The whole day was sucked away while I was playing Pharaoh, and I wasn’t even that interested in playing. The whole time I was playing I was actually thinking to myself, “this sucks.” It was just something to do when I needed something to be done, I suppose. It was either that or make another area of this site (and I don’t know what else to make; I’m close to starting some cliques or webrings or something like that…) or download another 5 CDs. All of those, even playing a game, give me a headache. I would have much rather played The Sims, but I know if I do, I’ll just wish I had the Unleashed expansion pack.

I think the reason why I’m so unproductive now is because I actually have something to do today. I need to clean the house for when Matt arrives. I had already planned on dividing the labor between two days, with washing extra clothes/sheets, picking up around the house, and 1/2 of the bathroom were to be done today. Cleaning the mouse cages, vacuuming, mopping the floor, and the other 1/2 of the bathroom were to be done tomorrow. And I’m being even less than productive than I should be. Matt says I don’t need to clean the house, but I don’t think he really understands just how bad and disgusting this house is on a regular basis. I probably won’t get to working on it until later tonight when my parents are asleep, and I’ll just decide to do all the “noisey” stuff (aka, everything) tomorrow so I won’t wake my parents. Blah. Like right now… I actually had to motivate myself to write this, yet I should have been motivating myself to clean.

I haven’t fed Herbie in a week, when it’s supposed to be every 3 days. I’ve been really sucking My motivation generator totally and utterly breaks under expectations and deadlines.

I was bored so I just decided to add a whole new artwork section. Have some new photographs up as well.

This is the first time in a long time that I’ve actually woken up at 8AM. Last night, my head was still hurting so bad, I had to lay down… so I asked Matt to call because I wanted to hear his voice, and felt bad about being away from the computer again. I tried to stay on the phone, but it ended up being too much, and he convinced me to lay down with a cold washcloth on my head. I did that for a while, until I finally got drowsy, and then I actually did get to sleep. I slept until about 8AM, and I woke up with the headache still there. I staggered out into the hallway to use the bathroom, and my mother scared the hell out of me enthusiasticly yelling “hi!” when she saw me in the hallway. She was in the kitchen organizing some clothes and stuff (yay) and I told her about my headache. She gave me some more things to take… some of the generic Midial (sp? no clue how to spell the brand name) stuff, and told me to take 4. She had heard one of the pharmacists say that one of her coworkers could take that many and still be safe, and my mother said it killed her headache quickly. It’s been less than a 1/2 hour, and my headache from hell is actually letting up a bit… though it’s sort of being replaced by a shaky, almost “I could get sick” feeling. But I was having that last night, too.

I talked to Sarita some last night, first time in a while. She’s moved up to Boston – I had heard that from Michelle I think, but had forgotten until she told me told me last night. We talked some, about what each other was doing… she had been drinking, and when I told her I was eating chocolate, she started craving it and went on a search for some. By the time she came back (it was a while later I think I was probably already laying in bed, cause she got my auto away message. I’m not really as mad with her as I un wito be… we sort of left on bad terms in December, and never really repaired it all the times she visited or when we talked. It probably didn’t bother her as much as it did me, and that’s ok… there’s only one thing that bothers me the most, and I don’t think she knows what I know…

It’s snowing here. That was the second thing my mother showed me, other than that she was organizing her clothes in the kitchen. It’s supposed to be “shoveable snow,” since it’ll be deep enough to shovel… news stations pick the silliest names for things. We’re supposed to get up to 3-6 inches. I had thought they predicted snow for Thursday earlier this week, and actually I was thinking about that as I was heading to the bathroom after I woke up – thinking about how my mother could be off another day if it snowed then. Guess that won’t happen… but I hope it snows as much as it can. Matt hasn’t really seen snow in WI this year – they’re having very little snow for some odd reason, and it’d be nice if he could at least see some deep snow while here. Not that it’s that great of a thing… just something to see

Blah… I think I smell eggs and no one offered me any. Must go see…

Kitty.

Been trying to battle this headache I’ve had all day, but right now it’s almost more than I can take… it went away for a little after I took something, which was right after I woke up… but now it’s constantly stinging at my temples, and there’s nothing else here that I could take to ease it. I figure it’ll hurt whether I am sitting here or laying down, so I might as well at least wait until I’m bored to lay in bed… though, that will probably happen sooner than later. Nothing at all for me to do.

I got my hair cut today, too, to about the same length I had it when I went to Arizona to see Matt for the first time. But I don’t really like it… deep down, I’d like to cut it as short as I’ve always wanted, but I’m afraid it will just look ugly on me (well, actually, I know it will). I chose to cut it instead of letting it grow out, just because I didn’t feel like waiting for it to grow out. Quick solution, I guess, but I was also getting sick of the same old haircut, especially when I don’t even know if that’s the best one I could do for my face shape / frame.. it’s just been the one that’s been “working.” After I decided to cut it short, I debated about getting layers for most of today… I don’t really want them, but without them, my hair just looks plain and gets too fluffy in all the wrong places. I had wanted to get it cut in the first place to fix that problem, but now it’s just a shorter version of the same mess. So now I’m considering the layers, which I know I’ll hate myself for later if I give in and get them… later, as in after I’ve forgotten how much worse it looked without them. I was really going for something new, but cutting it short and adding the same layers I always have is exactly the opposite of that Blah.

Feels like this is only making my headache worse.