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Ehh. Did laundry yesterday. 3 weeks worth, and I'll probably do more tomorrow, after I'm done with my exams. Ugh. I have to study, study, study today. I hope no one drops by... I wanted to do so much more yesterday, but everyone seemed to be dropping by my room. I feel bad telling them to get out... Ugh. I'll just have to. Like, lock the door so that they can't just walk in, I'll have to answer, and then tell them I'm deep into studying. I need to do something about this stupid test... So much to MEMORIZE. You can't just have an understanding - it's all terms and shit. Ugh. 4 pages worth of hand written summaries of all my notes. Yuck.
Was talking to Alan yesterday. He had gone shopping with her as part of his Christmas present. While they were out, they made plans for me to go shopping with them sometime while I was there. I'm sure it'll go by fine, but I'll be anxious about it until it is over with. His mother never really liked me... She didn't like that I was so quiet, because she thought that made me a bad match for Alan. I'm getting to me more and more myself around Alan everytime I see him. I'm not sure why... I wonder if he sees me as being a different person now, or just now beginning to see the person he knew was there all along. I wonder if his mother will notice? Or if I'll be comfortable enough to show it. I dunno. From everything Alan says, she seems to be encouraging us, which is nice. Really nice. I was just thinking, and I've only met her on two occasions in my life. One during which we were doing alright, and one that we broke up shortly after... Maybe Alan's been saying really great things about me. Well, actually, I am sure he is, but maybe Alan's mom is believing him. Maybe she sees it in his eyes? Ehh, too many questions and concerns.
Alan mentioned that he saw something yesterday that would make my frogs look like toys. He mentioned maybe buying me one for Christmas that he would keep until he moves here, eee. I like animals 
Makes me wonder if it goes in a cage... Or maybe a house pet type animal. One fleeting thought that just came to my mind was a ferret... Because we always used to plan that we would have albino ferrets running around 
Ehh, probably not, but a cute thought.
Blah.. I guess I've got to study now. Fucking ick.