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I just found out that Jenn is trying to move out. I noticed yesterday that she had somehow made a "friendship" with our RA, Meranda, and I thought that was surprising only because Meranda is not really Jenn's type of person... Meranda's my type, only way more cheerful. Then, when I got back from class today, there was a note saying that I should call Michelle since she called, and then to tell Meranda that if she came by that Jenn would get back to her ASAP. I call Michelle, and go down a few moments later so we can go to lunch, and the first thing she said as we started walking was, "So I hear Jenn is moving out." I was like, fuck. It bothered me the entire lunch, and is still bothering me now... It had best better not be about me, and what a problem I am. Now that I think of it, it would explain why Jenn has been taking the phone calls to her mother out in the hallway. I didn't think anything of it, but... fuck me. It pisses me off, since I know everyone on the hall must know, since she knows everybody and I get the feeling that they all talk amongst themselves, anyway.
... I just asked her "the question" when she walked in the door. I told her that Meranda left a message on the door, and she said great, and she was freaking gushing about other things... And then there was a pause, and I said to her, that I over heard people talking... Talking in relation as to why she wanted to see Meranda. And she quickly looked up and said, "Oh, about me moving out? Yeah, I don't think are going as well as they should be and I think we'll probably get into arguments later." Bullshit. Yeah, if she had continued to just use the room for whatever she wanted, whenever she wanted (usually 10 till fucking 2 or 3 if she had her way) and continued to completely disrespect the fact that it's my room too, then, yeah, arguments would soon start to occur. Who the fuck does she think she is? Just because I don't go out and get drunk at parties and hug her like she's my sister, she thinks she has the right to cause all of this inconvenience and worry and trouble for a certain group of people. Oh, jeezzzeeee Jenn, I didn't realize you wereso unhappy living with someone who could be considered a good influence if you'd only wise up. But what was I thinking! What a horrible fate for you to be living with such an antisocial dork. Your need for social attention is much more important than a good night's sleep, anyway. Ugh. I think the majority of this probably started the night before last, when I was just staring at her, making eye contact with her, from under my covers as she was sitting at her computer, talking in a very normal volume voice to another girl when she knew I was trying to go to sleep.
With all the tripples in this school, I didn't think they would allow, let alone have room, for someone to move just because they have a tissy over not loving their roommate as much as they "should be." Aren't they supposed to have some sort of group session, or something? Talk to us both? I know I talk bad about Jenn here, but I'm very nice to her in person. No reason to start anything - she is one of those people who if you made her mad, she would probably start acting differently towards you. There are certain things I can choose to live with, and she was going to be one of them. But right now, I'm ready to blow up. I'm ready to pick her apart until I get the very instant that she started to prefer other company. I can do that... I can do it well.
She's talking her Meranda right now, I think. I wonder what the outcome will be.. If she'll even tell me, since she has already chosen to disclude me from one issue that would obviously involve me. It pisses me off about the posters... She could have told me she was fucking moving out before I put the cost of her posters on my fucking card.