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I have stayed up 4 hours longer than I intended to, waiting for Alan No sign of him yet, and it's a quarter till 4... I have no idea why I am doing this. He will not be able to talk for very long; he has to be at his new job at 8 AM. Fuck, he might not even sign online. 4:30 is my cut off, if I even last that long.
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Oh my god, I'm in love... There is a certain woman who comes into Food Lion all the time, and she raves about the Ben & Jerry's flavor Phish Food. Chocolate swirled with creamy vanilla, with caramel in the middle, sprinkled with fish-shaped chocolate candy. YUM.
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Someone reviewing my site filled out my survey, and called me judgmental about people who have some form of faith. I disagree there's any proof of that in what I wrote, but it's their opinion. In my review, I didn't appreciate them taking the time to personally attack my opinions, and trying to make me foolish in doing so. I thought I said I had no real knowledge of religion in the article? [shrugs] And I state clearly why the purple teletubby is gay. Why I think it's good for children to see. But I don't care; go ahead and make me look stupid. And I know there is a warning about my spelling on my page somewhere.
I loved the review, otherwise. Not exactly nice, but no ass kissing, either. It made me mad, but that's good. And they basically said I suck. Good. I wasn't out to please.
And (what a surprise) Alan is not online. He signed on near 6 PM. He said he got a job. Yippie yippie. [insert bad comment here.] I told him I was leaving to watch a movie soon, and he said "Have fun. You deserve it." That statement caught my interest, and I asked "Why?" His response: "because you've been stressed lately it seems."
What. The. Fuck.
I seem stressed? !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I seem stressed? Stressed?? For someone who reads my journal entries, for someone who shares conversations with me, for someone who has caused my stress, thank goodness he's finally acknowledging something. He needs to realize that he is apart of me. He needs to realize if he's going wale around childishly and throw pity parties, it's going to effect me. If he make it apparent that something is bothering him, but then bluntly pushes me out, that's going to bother me. And I want to talk to him about this, but he's not online. Conveniently not online. And he'll probably be gone all of tomorrow, since I believe he's starting college courses tomorrow.
I think he will do horrible in his college course while he's also working two jobs. But, of course, that won't matter when I'm proven right. Again.
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I went to Food Lion today and bought some random things. I dragged my mother along with me. It was good; I hadn't gone shopping with my mother for quite sometime. Good to spend time with her. We picked up to movies, "Hanging Up" and "Girl, Interrupted." It was a get one, get the other for $.05 deal.
My father is bowling tonight, and my mother has today off. We're going to watch our movies, and eat food. And I guess I won't be online much this afternoon. I've decided that I'm not going to spend today waiting for Alan to sign on. He's showing some disinterest, and I don't want to deal with it right now.
I was talking with Stephen last night (well, more like talking at him, since I was really wired) and I sent Stephen the conversation I had with Alan on the 27th. (right date?) Since that conversation with Alan, I've been feeling down for the things I said and what not. After Stephen read the conversation, he replied "Is he always like that?" He also went on to say that Alan does not really let me be supportive, which is true. At the time, that fact was the thing that made me get frustrated with Alan. But, just because Stephen agreed with me doesn't make me feel any more right, or make Alan seem any more wrong. It just makes me feel better that I'm not the psycho bitch in the situation.