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He doesn't even seem aware of the fact that I am unhappy. He doesn't care. I shove mean words around but I'm just so scared. I am so scared I'll never see or hear from him again. That he was my once in a life time. He keeps blocking me off. There's nothing I can do but sit here and cry about it. I turn myself inside out writing him stupid letters, when he probably thinks I'm just saying whatever I'm saying just to make him feel bad. To make him feel bad. That's all I ever seem to do is make him feel bad. I keep apologizing for things I can't help. Over and over and fucking over. And he still won't talk to me. I don't have the words to justify how much it hurts to think of how happy I was. AND HE ACTS LIKE I'M LIEING. I still love him so much. I wish I were dead.
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