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I am home from work, since I had the great hours that are 7:45 AM to 2:30 PM. And since I really have nothing better to do, I thougth I might put a little effort into this.
At first I thought I would be stubborn and wait until I came up with a new layout before I updated my pages. But 1/2 way through the month, and I am still fucking empty handed. I am just too fucking lazy, I suppose. Or I have been to busy. I am not sure. I've seen so many web pages that busted through with brand new pages, and have had perfect journals since the first. I wish I had thought of that, or had anything to do that with.
Going to Alan's was... It was good to see him. Me and him both have said that the trip was not good as it could have been. "Wasted opportunity" was said by someone. Probably Alan. It almost caused us to break up, because there was sight of things I do not think I could live with and be happy with if they did continue. There are personal details that contributed to the trip's failure, but to save some sort of privacy, I am keeping that to myself. This is mainly just a note to myself so I can remember later, if I ever happen to go reading back through these.
When I came back to school, some interesting things had been going on with one of my guy friends. My homosexual guy friend. (I feel bad saying "my homosexual friend," but I am trying to respect the fact that he has not come out yet.) My friend was able to successfully expose a mutual friend of ours as also homosexual. I was shocked at first, and then got all giddy at the thought of them hooking up. But sadly, it twasen't meant to be. Only one of them was interested. Damnit.
I've known both of these people for at least 5 years, and one I have known since pre school. And I've spent more time with them, talked to them more, in the past few weeks then I may have ever in a certain period of time. I know I used to be hostile to the person of "new discovery" for years and years. But now I am so interested, so fascinated... It just erased any of the stupid assumptions I had of them. I think homosexuals and bisexuals are better people in general, and it proved me wrong in a lot of situations me and him had had in the past. Someday I think I will tell him that.
My project lately has been to furnishing my room. I've spent a good amount of my money buying things to make it look better. I've taken down all the posters, I've got new bed sheets and curtains and blinds. I'm planning on putting some new wallpaper up, also. I'm trying to go for an oriental design. I hope I can do it and not burn a negative hole in my pocket.
My exams are over. And so with this weekend came the end of a semester of school for me. It does not feel that long, and I will miss my classes, as every student in the school will get 4 new classes on Wednesday, to replace the 4 old. 4 classes the first semester, 4 the second, for a total of 8 classes. I was drifting easily though hazy days of school, not even knowing or caring what day it was. I took it a lot for granted. I'm going to miss the environment and the mix. I just hope this coming semester is as laid back as the first.
After I had finished my last to exams, it was around 11:20, and most of the school was leaving early, as they had already taken the exams for 3rd and 4th the previous day. I had plans to go with my friend Sandy and Jennifer to Charlottesville (sp?), which I had never been to. The experience was great, though I know I dragged them though a lot of stores with furnishing things that they didn't want to go through, but they were polite about it.
Somewhere alone the line, Jennifer got a little glum, and was spending a lot of time with her mother, who happened to be working at the mall we were at. She would say "I'll catch up with you." So we dragged her into a clothing store, and she was gushing over the dresses. Sandy suggested Jennifer tried one of them on, and she was about to decline, but I chipped in and said I would, too. So, we tried on the slinky dresses that i would never the caught dead in. I made a complete fool of myself, dancing around and shaking my butt. I got Jennifer to laugh. We ended up going to Gadzooks, Sears, and Belk to try on prom dresses. Sandy even joined in at the end. It was fun.
We stayed out until about 7:45, or that is when I got home. It's a long drive from there to my house. Maybe an hours worth of dark curvey roads. It felt good. I felt fresh. And liked again.